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Birthing

I was wondering (though I knew the answer deep down) why I was so tired all the time and feeling like someone had pulled my plug from the current?

In the last nine months, I have fixed up my home of seven years and put it on the market to sell. The house sold and there was more work. Packing, purging, making arrangements for a life that I could not see in my minds eye. Then there was a month-long trip to Germany during winter and Covid. Finally, there was the possibility of a new landing spot far from my friends and familiar surroundings.

The last three months have been about settling into a place I really didn’t want to be in but decided it was probably for the best and turning out better than I’d imagined. It has required new health care protocol, trying to make new friends, and deal with entirely different weather and living conditions.

In essence, I have given birth to a whole new life in the last nine months. A lot work went into creating it so it’s time to take a good look my life now and claim it.

Running in circles leaves no air for me.

I realized I had become habituated to eating what was cheap and easy. Is that who I am? A cheap, easy addict? So, I decided to take charge of this new life I’ve birthed and feed it properly. I’ve been gradually increasing the length and intensity of my walks as I’ve become slightly more acclimated to the altitude of 6300 ft. I fasted for a few days and then continued with a healthy low carb lifestyle for the duration.

The hardest part of this new life? Giving up being cheap and easy. The interesting part is the cough has quieted and my creative energy is returning after allowing myself extra resting time. The apartment is still more cluttered than I’d like but things are still on the move here. Mostly out the door. My new sofa and chair may arrive this month but I know better than to have expectations.

First project in the new sewing room. A gift

I finally found my essential sewing tools packed in odd places and am beginning to start sewing again. My very first projects were gifts, as it should be and I tried something new for fun. I’ve attended two card making classes at the Senior Center. Had a very good time but will not succumb to another expensive hobby.

Back shows embroidery stitching better

I have been able to cat/house sit for the kids three times since I’ve been here. Change of pace for me and a way to give back a bit for all they do to help me. Gracie is now an official curmudgeon and Sonar a tormenting toddler.

Have you ever given birth to a new idea, project or lifestyle? Were there labor pains in the process?

Every day may not be good, but there is something good in every day. ~Alice Morse Earle

From my heart to yours,

Marlene Herself

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  1. I am so glad that things are settling in for you. It really is a totally new life. It’s a rare person who undergoes such a major lifestyle change, and claims ownership of it. That’s much more adult than many of us can handle – it’s easier, and sometimes more comforting to complain.
    Looking forward to hearing more from you, please continue to take care of yourself.

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    • Thanks so much, Lou for your kind words and stopping by. You can see why I rarely get to reading blogs these days but the hardest part is behind me and now I’ll have a bit more time to catch up a bit. Just came back from my 30 min walk. Eating better isn’t a punishment like we think because we have to give up good stuff. That self care is something many of us are not very good at but now I’m better at it. I’ll stop by soon.

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  2. Mazel tov 🥳!

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  3. Dear Marlene , thanks for sharing your latest news. I’m in admiration for your strength and positive attitude. You took wise choices and improved your life by changing some easy habits . I hope your new home will gradually become cosier and more you 🙂
    Allow yourself for some rest in between all activity 🙂
    Sending you my best greetings and virtual hugs 🤗

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    • Thank you so much for stopping by and your kind and encouraging words. It’s been an uphill climb but I think I’ve reached the summit so it will be downhill from here. Rest is no longer just an option but a requirement. Now while house sitting, I’m missing my own space a bit. It’s definitely coming together in less than half the space I moved from. Every day is a good day. Hugs back to you.

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  4. I do admire someone who can cope with and accept the changes that you have, Marlene…

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  5. I’m so happy you are embarrassing your new life, Marlene. You’ve experienced a lot of change the past nine months, yet you’ve come out on the other side with grace and a new found energy. You’re an inspiration! ❤️❤️

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    • Thanks so much, Jill. When I sat down and wrote it all out, it made sense to be a bit fatigued. Now I’m on the upswing again. Perspective makes all the difference. Hugs to you.

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  6. this sounds like a such a good change for so many reasons. so much positive ahead of you and you are seeing the effects already. any big change is always a bit uncomfortable at first, but this is when the most growth happens.

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    • It is a complete shift in the way I live my life, Beth. Not having to take care of structural issues on a home frees up time and energy for other things. Simplifying my life was what I wrote that I wanted. That’s what I have received. Thanks for stopping by and your kind words.

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  7. You are resilient Marlene. I am proud of you and your positive approach to your new life. Be safe and well my friend.

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    • Thanks so much, Cindy. They did a study on happy people. The quality most possessed was resiliency. Whining is like worrying. Gets you nowhere. 🙂 Thanks for stopping by.

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  8. It was so good to see a new post from you come across my email! I’d say you’ve earned some rest and relaxation after so much upheaval in your life. And you’re sewing again–hurray!

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  9. There is a quiet hope in this post which has been missing for a while. No epic, grandiose plans, just a determination that life will be lived better. I love it! And I love the resulting refreshment of your creative spirit. The old (former) Marlene has come up for air…

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    • You are very correct, Kate. I was a duck. Everything looked smooth on the surface but I was paddling frantically underwater. I woke up one day and decided that it was finally time to start taking care of myself. Quiet hope is a good way to put it. I’ve been afraid to hope. Feels good.

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  10. It’s hard to know how small blips or major change will impact us, and after living life in a settled way for years it’s important to give ourselves permission to flounder for awhile. A strong, determined person like yourself will climb back up and out ready to move forward again. So glad to hear you are make healthy changes and finding a new normal in this new stage of life.

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    • You are so right, Deb. Another move was not in the original plan when I bought my place but circumstances changed and I needed to flow with that change. Fortunately, I had a lot of help. The timing was right now that my kitchen is set up so I can eat healthy again. Dr was very happy with me at my last visit on Monday. The meals on wheels food the senior center serves is very high in carbs and definitely not the best for anyone much less those who are diabetic. So I’m not eating there anymore. It worked until now. Walking early mornings as the heat is on here. Thanks for the visit. Hugs.

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  11. This is such a great post to read Marlene as you settle in and rebalance not only all of your possessions but your inner world as well. I am delighted your new regime is paying dividends and you are acclimatising and nourishing yourself with quality ..
    So good to see your sewing box and your new sewing work station is now in production again.. And Loved the Heart.. and I am sure who ever receives your gifts will be so delighted.

    Those beautiful Cats… Love their names and great photos Marlene..
    I hope you continue to be able to extend your walking and not feel so tired and out of breath as you acclimatise to your new routines, altitude and detoxing..

    You are certainly rebirthing yourself for sure Marlene.. and so happy to see you settling into your new Birthed Haven and Self.. 🙂 ❤
    Much love my friend ❤
    Sue x

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    • Thanks so much, Sue. I had no idea the transitions to this new life would leave me so flat, physically. It has left me without much energy for anything else up until now. I’m seeing change taking place already and will be back to my better plugged in self quite soon. I have higher expectations for myself than I’ve had energy to pull it all off. It’s all getting better. See you soon. Thanks for the visit. Love and hugs, m

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  12. sharynghathcock said:

    My beautuful friend. You have accomplished soooo much & are worth every labor pain! Mid☆wifing your healthier lifestyle is thrilling. You are amazing!

    I love your wise investment into a new way of eating, extra walking & yes, gifting yourself time to acclimate. They will yield huge dividends!

    Love you,
    Sharyn

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    • Thanks so much for the visit, Sharyn. Love hearing from you. I have been walking for the last five years and that’s what has helped me keep going. The altitude really knocked the wind out of my sails for awhile but I’m coming back slowly dragging that tank behind me. I’m glad cheap and easy was just a part of the labor pains and not a permanent issue. The dividends are already showing themselves. If you ever get up this way, stop by. Would love to hug you in person.

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  13. I just love your positive and optimistic outlook on whatever you tackle or whatever comes your way. With all of the negativity out there I love reading your perspective on life. Really, it is how we face things that help determine what we get out of life, I guess. I look forward to seeing you next week! Big hugs until then.

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    • You are so correct, Jan. It is how we look at things. I trust that I will always be led to where I need to be at the moment. It always turns out for the best even if it doesn’t appear that way at first. I’m always amazed how things come about. Negativity is just too exhausting so I gave it up. 🙂 Getting excited to see you too.

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  14. The final quote is apt. Look for the good in the bad, the light in the darkness. Labour pains in the process are part of the challenge. If it was all so easy, we wouldn’t appreciate the goalposts when we pass them.
    Loving hearing that the cough has settled and you are increasing your walks. That lack of motivation and “its all too hard,” mentality is what finishes one’s zest for life at an advanced age. My mother is like that now at 89. Just existing not living and full of winging. It is a good reminder to get off the butt and do things. But I concur about not starting another expensive hobby.

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    • Good things don’t always come easy and the easy is usually not as well appreciated. At 89, I might not try so hard either but not something I have to worry about. I just want to get certain projects done while I can and maybe be a light for someone else struggling through. That’s what motivates me. The harder I work, seems the longer I get to do it. I’m delighted each morning just to wake up. But no more expensive hobbies. Have enough of those and not fueling them either. 🙂 Hugs to you, Amanda

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      • “I just wanna get certain projects done and be a light for someone else that’s struggling through.”
        I would love it if people who are lost, hateful, confused, frightened, unmotivated, bored, jealous, destructive could think this way more often, Marlene.
        There is a ‘Marlene gem’ in every one of your comments. At least I always seem to find one! You make such a difference to me! And often it is the words or a thought I am needing to read at that very moment. Even though we have never even met. How strange is that? But the best kind of strange!!!Thank you!!jeg 🧡❤❤💜

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      • Thank you, Amanda.

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  15. What a journey. What a chapter. What a new life unfolding. 💐🙏🏼💕You are remarkable Marlene!, So happy you have ditched the cheap and easy. That can be so toxic to body, mind and spirit.

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    • Some of it was a necessary tool to make new acquaintances. Meals at the Senior Center are the same as the meals on wheels here and not particularly healthy but it helped me get acquainted. Traveling as much as we did and having no kitchen supplies for so long also added to that situation but now was the perfect time to settle down and clean up my act. I knew it was a temp issue so I tried not to worry about it. Getting back to my healthier lifestyle feels so good. Soon I’ll be back in my more orderly rhythm. Thanks for stopping by, Val.

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  16. Birthing. What a great analogy for change. It’s hard in the process, but what a gift in the end.

    We’re in the process of getting our home ready to sell while the market is good, and plan to live in our travel trailer for about a year to a year and half before we retire. There’s a lot of flux, which isn’t easy, but what an adventure! Take care my friend, and enjoy the now. 😊

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    • Oh my goodness, Missy! I love the idea of living in a travel trailer until you find your next spot. There is a lot of faith and trust involved with that but the outcome will be perfect for you. I wish you could keep me posted on your adventures. I’m so excited for you. Yes, it was worth it in the end.

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  17. Hey hey Vonderfrau ! Look at you go (or is it sew?) 😀 How awesome to be getting a handle on it all Marlene. Kind of fun to have kitty company for a few days too. Did they snuggle you to sleep at night? Unwanted change can’t be easy, I think you’re doing brilliantly my dear.
    Have I ever given birth to a new idea when there were complications along the way? Is there any other kind of plan? Something always goes sideways doesn’t it? I’d like to have our upstairs recarpeted and painted, but there’s the question of our ensuite. Should that be reno’d b4 to avoid tramping on new carpet and scuff freshly painted walls. These are all questions I don’t have the answers to presently but I’m more than certain, there will be labour pains, LOL. Kisses xK

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    • Kitty company kept me very busy for a week and that was quite nice. They are very loyal to their people and keep looking for them and wondering, even after most of the week, why I was there . You are right, complications are always a part of the process. Growing pains. I wait for the answers to come to me organically and they always do. It’s been quite the process these last nine months but it’s been worth the agony. 😉 Hugs and love, M

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  18. My biggest re-birth took place 9 years ago, when we gave up everything we owned in Michigan and created a new life in Texas. There were definitely birthing pains then! I didn’t realize it was just the beginning of an incredible journey of growth and discovery. The culmination of that journey was when I left my old teaching job down here, after going through a very abusive situation. (I only blogged about that well after the fact).

    Anymore, there are just growing pains. My recent trip across the country with a group of racists was a perfect example of that. 😦

    I love watching your journey and the beautiful newness that you are birthing! And..okay…the cats are adorable!

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    • I remember your posts from back then, Bethany. You were really going through a lot. They say that things don’t happen to you, they happen for you so you get to where you are supposed to be. I know for a fact that after all of this, I’m right where I should be too. Things are settling down and I can get back here more now. The cats, they have minds of their own. Adorable when asleep.

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  19. Hi Marlene! Good for you, taking charge of yourself and feeling a difference. Your past nine months has been a whirlwind and complete turnaround. You inspire me! I need to eat better and start walking this summer. I’m glad you found your sewing essentials. Best to you! 💕

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  20. I’ve been busy, myself, so it was lovely to drop by tonight and find TWO posts waiting for me! I’m so glad you are settling in and creating a new life for yourself. We do seem to go through stages a bit like a caterpillar, don’t we? Sending love your way. ~ Linne

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    • You are right, Linne. If we are doing it right, we keep growing and changing with the flow of life. We do need to sit a spell and let our wings dry out so we can fly though. I think that’s where I’m at now. It’s been quite the process. Hope you are doing well and finding some solutions. I’ll check in with you soon. Love and hugs.

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  21. aha, that’s what it’s called “birthing” well I’m the very first month of working through dealing with my edibles – because I’ve got a point where making a whole meal has been a huge ask for my hands.

    So I’m working and researching which is best way forward to have a 80% of readymade meals come to the door. Not only which catering or other similar company but what else should I eat which doesn’t have a lot of kitchen prep etc.
    Over the last 3 weeks, an interesting exercise which is still not fine tuned. I just got a delivery today from another “friend recommended” company and I will eat their first main meal tomorrow night.

    At the same time, I’m considering streamlining my laundry and I’ve researched what is available on pick up – wash,dry,fold – deliver. Mostly I should like the linen and towels to be done this way.

    Plus, although I’ve not moved – it’s time to relook at the furniture that at the time of “gifting” fitted my circumstances but now I need to kind of upgrade – that will require a lot of research…

    I’m happy to see you’ve worked through your birthing program of life and actually getting into your sewing room – a great saviour for sure.

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    • Thanks for stopping by, Catherine. It’s been quite the long process but seems to be settled for the most part now. They closed the kitchen here so no more cheap meals this week. I think they had a case of covid in the kitchen. Cook and server both. I’m glad you are figuring out how to make life easier for yourself. It sometimes takes a while but worth the effort. I’m finally going to get some extra time to read blogs again, I do hope. Have picked up another project and will see how it comes out with some time. Take care.

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  22. What really strikes me is how you say you must take a good look at your life and claim it. You are constantly on a mission to be accountable and to grow. You’re a hero to me, and I appreciate how you show me how it’s done. I’m glad the kitties needed to be sat, so you could get some new surroundings and new companions, even if temporarily. It makes life more interesting when that happens. You can’t spend 100% of your time just organizing your apartment. On that note, hearing that the sewing projects are in progress is wonderful. Hugs and love to you. Don’t go for a walk when it’s 187 degrees outside, ok? ❤

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    • You make me laugh, Crystal. Thank you for the compliments. I’m blushing here. I’m getting good headway on the projects and will walk at 5:00 a.m. to avoid heat. I’d be shocked to be moving my arms at 87degrees. At least the 90’s are behind us for a bit. Monsoon season so I time my sewing between thunderstorm. 🙂

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